I promised myself I wouldn’t let this get to me. As you can tell in my past blogs, I was trying to be broad about this whole situation. I was trying to put all this in a general perspective, but now, I have no choice. This is some childish shit you’re pulling.
After getting to know you for about a month, I can say, everything went pretty smooth. I admit, I had my guard up high about you. I did my best to show no emotion, and that got you good. Then mid way through all this, I realized I had the upper-hand and was playing you so hard. You had no idea what I was doing. You always said I was lying but you believed me either way. The way my phone went off constantly, and when I hung out with my friends made you jump on your toes every single time. I found it super amusing and who knows, maybe you were playing the game too. After a while, I realized that this wasn’t going anywhere. You got too insecure, and you instigated everything I did. Knit-picking at little shit just so you can make sure I wasn’t doing anything I wasn’t suppose to.
You made sure that I knew I was the only girl you were “with”. What bothered me the most was that you made me feel like I was holding you back. Although you stood your ground and said no, I knew I was. “Do you.” You always said that, but you weren’t doing you. For a person of your stature, I expected nothing less, but you showed me that and I was disappointed. For the first time ever, I couldn’t believe I was the more put together than anyone. I was stabled. Mentally, at least, and it was a shame to see someone like you not being able to handle any of this.
People asked me if I did anything wrong in order for you to feel this way, and really, I can’t think of anything. After it ending it between us, I honestly hoped we could still be friends. I mean, it wasn’t even as serious as it shouldve been, so theres no reason for any of us to show hatred. But you had to go that extra mile and totally disconnect me, physically and virtually? Really? I mean, if you knew this was going to happen, why even bring me into your life in the first place? Im not upset that you realized, this wasn’t going to happen, but the fact that you’re just trying to get rid of me all in all. Especially, when I didn’t do anything wrong. Its mind boggling, and whatever your reason being is, it sure wouldn’t make sense. There are so many things I can try to put together, but in the end, it doesn’t make sense. At all.
