Epic

Sidenote first: I love that I’ve been blogging a lot more.

Anyways, prior to my last encounter of being involved with someone, I almost lost a big part of me that I didn’t want to let go in the first place. I ALMOST sacrificed an epic lifestyle I fell in love with just because he didn’t like it. If I must say it, it is the “rave game”. I know this scene is greatly looked down upon, but I will admit it now- I love house, I love trance, and I love anything EDM. I may sound like an ‘e-tard’ but just because I bump this music in my car, or have it as a ringtone, doesn’t mean I constantly want to be on that drug all the time. People grow up, and we get involved in different things. Just as he loved to smoke weed and listen to hiphop, I could smoke weed and listen to both type of genres and still enjoy it. 

I guess what irritated me the most was the fact that I had to lie about it. I told him I never lied to him about anything while he was getting to know me, but truthfully, it was just THAT. What made it hard for me was, I couldn’t show him my whole being. And no, I don’t mean rolling off my ass, and getting all touchy and shit, but I couldn’t let him know how I had fun and lived my life besides, school and work. I almost changed myself because I was scared of being judged. I love every aspect of my life, and the only way for anyone to be apart of it, is if they can accept it.