Roses
So lately, I’ve been getting a lot of two cents from my family about being single. I came to the family christmas party, and my uncle somehow assumed that I was bringing a significant other this year. I mean, I know its been a while, but I don’t get what’s so wrong with being single. Now, everyone automatically assumes that something is wrong with me, concluding reasons as to why a guy wouldn’t want to date me. Really? We have grown past the time in which we have met our high school sweethearts and married them 5 years later. Stuff like that barely happens anymore. Have you not noticed the way we all communicate with each other? Texting and facebook. The two main sources of social networking, and you wonder why Im single. Emotions through these don’t exist. Majority of it is fake, and both parties are getting played. I may be biased about all this, but being single for the past 2 years and having met the guys I did, I can truly say this is through experience.
Maybe it’s just the guys I meet after all. Maybe Im old-fashioned? A lot of my friends tell me I expect too much, but honestly, it’s just how our generation works. We play games in order to get what we want. Deny it all you want, but there is not one person I know who won’t text the other unless they text first. Right? It’s as simple as that, that drives us nuts and complicates the relationship even more. “Who ever gives in first, loses.” This has been embedded in our minds for the longest time, and in the end, we’re just lying to each other. I won’t lie, I can only be honest to a certain point, because Im afraid of being “figured out”. Once my game plan is figured out, then Im done for. But what the hell is our main goal at the end of the day? What do we want out of ‘this’? I didn’t even know I had a game plan until I solved the other person’s, and there is begins. We just want them to be the ONE, and the ONLY one.
No such thing. We want so much, and its just the common desires that are the tragedies to these relationships. We are never satisfied. Thats why these lies build mountains upon mountains. Its just whoever lies better will get what they want. What a shame as to what I have to get myself into. Now do you see why I’ve been single for the past 2 years? Because yes, I set expectations. I’ve grown shallow and I just want the best as much as you guys want for me. But understand what I’ve been dealing with before putting me on blast about my love life. Even if I really like the guy Im seeing, I’m gonna lie about it. We all want the last laugh. It is what it is.
